zhaomin is gone...
i'm somewhere lost!
i don't know what i want, i don't know what am i doing...
I DON'T KNOW ANYTHING!
nothing can describe how am i feeling; i can't even describe it.its grey...neither black nor white.enough of grey?! i know...there's a problem with me!it's totally screwed up by me.i've never felt so badly ever before.
dissapointment...you may feel it but, truely, i'm dissapointed with myself too.don't let me know how you feel.it'll further complicate things, leaving me all alone feeling even worse.
i'm sorry.well please give me some time, i'll try to find myself back...the true me!
please don't leave me alone...but just let me be.
don't ask... cause you know i'll say it if i want to.
silliness is in me...it leads to everthing...all that nonsensical behaviour!now it had led to me feeling so utterly dissapointed in myself.
never thought so much but yet...it seems as thought i'm walking towards the wrong direction.
I KNOW I AM! i notice the every single change in me...even if its the slightest. but yet i feel so helpless about it.
yes i know i'm silly.please don't say any further, but if you think you are losing me please hold on to me...don't give up!i give you my word that i'll try to find my way back...give me a push and lead me back!PLEASE!
LOSING MYSELF!):
