a coincidence which led to dinner with those girls last night, & i would say i really enjoyed it. its been such a long time since i talked to my hearts content! (: we caught up, shared many thoughts, & yes i learnt a lot from them!
i realised that i've been living with a contradicted state of mind. if i think this way, i will think the other way too. its seems like a battle between my heart & mind. they never seem to sync. probably that's why i never seem to understand myself fully cause the other side would always appear.
i really envy them for being able to draw the line really clear & yet nothing gets affected. shouldn't that be how things work? why do i always have to consider so much, get my feeling/thoughts all mixed up, & at the end, i'm not doing myself any good. i saw the contrast of how things worked in their life & mine. i wouldn't say mine was really bad, & theirs were really good. but i do admire their courage in some circumstances, & i envy them for that. nontheless, i guess i should be thankful for not experiencing the worst because i do have some really nice experiences & memories (:
alright, i need to go back to my notes. in the final year, i cannot afford to screw things up! its just being hardworking for a week. not that difficult yea? (:
i realised that i've been living with a contradicted state of mind. if i think this way, i will think the other way too. its seems like a battle between my heart & mind. they never seem to sync. probably that's why i never seem to understand myself fully cause the other side would always appear.
i really envy them for being able to draw the line really clear & yet nothing gets affected. shouldn't that be how things work? why do i always have to consider so much, get my feeling/thoughts all mixed up, & at the end, i'm not doing myself any good. i saw the contrast of how things worked in their life & mine. i wouldn't say mine was really bad, & theirs were really good. but i do admire their courage in some circumstances, & i envy them for that. nontheless, i guess i should be thankful for not experiencing the worst because i do have some really nice experiences & memories (:
alright, i need to go back to my notes. in the final year, i cannot afford to screw things up! its just being hardworking for a week. not that difficult yea? (:
i shall study hard, you shall run hard (: